Tuesday, May 3, 2011

A happy sad birthday daddy

hi daddy! it has been 5 years of celebrating your birthday without you. Its pretty tough down here, how i wish you're still with us so you can teach me the ways of the world.. its hard growing up without you around but i know you're in a place where you're very happy. I could just imagine you smiling without the pain of cancer. I remember you asked me before dad "how would it feel like to die?".. you told me you weren't scared and you're just scared of leaving me behind not knowing how this world will treat me. You dont have to worry about a thing anymore dad because im very blessed to have awesome sisters. You raised them well and they take care of me just like how you would want me to be taken care of. Today we had dinner and ate at mini shabu shabu, you're favorite! we miss you more than ever daddy.. when i get to heaven someday, would you know me as you daughter? would you hug me just like before? i know you've seen the face of Jesus, is he beautiful? were you in awe, was your mouth open just like when you watch in amazement while kim sings? i have so many questions, but until then, i can only just imagine. I love you forever daddy and ill always keep you in my heart. Someday ill tell my kids about you and how awesome you were..Happy birthday sir, its me, your baby girl :(